Birthday Party @ Tea Time Taman Mayang

I think this is one of our fav spot.. not too sure why.. maybe its cause its the center to wherever every1 of us is coming from.. lol... anyways, it was Pikky, Lester and Jean's Birthday for the mth and they decide to celebrate it all together.... As usual, I try my best not to drink too much cause my alcohol level is not too high... but with all the games going and Jacinta pouring every1's glasses almost always... I got a bit tipsy... anyways, I was molested by 2 kids... lol... gosh... can't believe that kids nowadays are so ganas.... lol... anyways... its not serious molesting.. they were just trying to make a joke bout a group of grown ups who have a tee bit too much to drink... lol

no.. im not pointing fingers... its my 1st finger... lol

me... a little tipsy...

Hidden Beneath The shadows

171108 - Pretty much like all cancerian, we hide in our shell a lot... i may deny it.. but what's the point of telling when I know.. if I tell, No one will understand.. and of course, If ever I do find some1 who does feel me... il open up... that day has yet to come.. anticipating for the one who truely deeply sincerely understands me.. or at least tries to... heck.. i don even understand me.. how can i expect ppl to?? lol... but anyhow..

I've living life to the fullest, enjoying every moment of it... savoring every bit of its juice till the bottom...

and sharing it with every1 who's willing to open up to me and be sincere...

Last night was another milestone in my journey. I actually accidentally open up my deepest sorrow to some1 i just met for couple of times..lol.. all thanks to alcohol...I know Im not suppose to tell.. but somehow, I can't control my brain... trying hard to stop myself with a clear mind... but anyways... Im sure she won't remember a thing I've told her last night.. cause she was pretty drunk.. hopefully cause Im not much of a drinker.. and Iv no experience in telling whether they r drunk or not..... yes... Bong Cheng Tzuu has only been drunk not more than 5 times and consume alcohol not more than 10 times... lol.. u can laugh bout it... but Im an athlete.. Im healthy... so wat!!

listening to her telling me her pains and sufferings reminded me a lot bout myself when i was younger... I totally felt it.. honestly.. I do.. seeing her cry it all out really pierce my heart and punctured a hole in me cause I was helpless in this situation... I hate it when I know I can't help to ease some1's problem... I've been tru a lot.. I know how painful it is... and I really don't wan to c any1 else goin tru the pain.. tru enough, we can't help every1 but least I can do is to help those who are sincere to c me as a person....I was really depressed last night Not cause I dono what to do to help.. its because she has to face the fears herself.. I can't replace her spot to face them for her.. Took me years to face my own demon... no one else can solve it except herself... If she is willing, Im willing to share my experience and advice.. and hope it motivates her and help her to rid herself off her demons too..

Haiz.. and I tot im a Heartless bastard who can't even cry no matter what happened.. I've shed tears twice within the last 2 months for others... I guess, I find it funny to shed tears for myself since I know I can solve all problems and If i can't, God and Jesus is always beside to support me up.. Now, i've learnt something valuable too.. the next time Im acting and am required to cry, I know what to think of... lol.. arghhhhhh..... sometimes really stress when you wana cry but can't cry it out... forcing myself to cry it out would almost always turn into a series of loud laughters cause I look so stupid forcing myself to cry my sorrows out in front of the mirror.... ish... ish....

Drunk

21-12-07 (Friday) - Well, Today's the day where everyone is overly excited. 1st was Jo'ana's surprise visit. She told me she couldn't come but ended up flying over. Heman and her planned to try to capture my shock facial reaction but they didn't managed. Then it was the Raggae Pub, Petaling Street. My 2nd time getting drunk but only Heman was from the 1st batch who ever saw me drunk. Thye Sing, Tian Yu, and Aaron Sitai are not here. So practically, its the 1st experience for everyone there. I promised Jo'ana to let her see me drunk at least once & everyone knows that I don't take alcohol.

Right, and I have the nerves to try a Flaming Lamborghini one shot. accompanied with Orange mixed with vodka (can't remember the name) which I shared with Jo'ana. and one other shot of some drink. I got really drunk after that and started smiling and laughing. Everyone took pictures of me. I think thats the main purpose they wanted to get me drunk. Every time I drink, you can see a group of people surrounding me and cheering on. I didn't get a hung over the next day, instead woke up at 7am with aching arms. But the experience is a totally foreign and new to me. At age 27, I'm just like a big kid. lol

(Clockwise - Me, Jen, Mei Ling & Heman)
- Look at Heman eating, over excited bout the Chinese bun -

Heman's scary look behind a large petal at Mid-valley, Malaysia

Jo'ana & I under a cloud of butterflies and Christmas decoratives

A burning shisha at Raggae Pub

A ghostly figure just pass by behind heman

Jo'ana's Flaming Lamborghini

My 1st Flaming Lamborghini